seven years later, i still feel like a child.

today i sent off someone who i called my best friend for majority of my life.
recently, i realized this will be the first time in my life where we'll be apart for more than like a couple weeks. i've seen her almost every day of the week since i remember. kindergarten, actually. it's definitely going to be a change since the next time i see her will be thanksgiving. it's kinda a thunderstorm cloudy thought. but i couldn't be more proud of her. i miss you, steph. you will have a great time in illinois, i know it.

this couldn't be any more surreal. i am saying goodbye to the faces and personalities i'm used to being around for so long. but this is so real. i just sent off my 'bff' since kindergarten to the airport to completely start a new life in a totally different state. how much more real does it have to be for me to understand? i don't really know what i was expecting. i guess it kinda just dawned on me that these people won't be a major part of my life for the first time ever. i'm just going to accept that everyone's moving on to bigger and better things. which is no problem - i'm on my way, too.

this is the earliest i've been up pretty much all summer. so i'm off to sleep.