i mean business.

i got what i wanted. i asked for a huge change in my life. i asked for God to turn my life upside down. however, it wasn't as dramatic as i wanted. but hey, it made me realize something i haven't seen, the something i was blind to all along. suffering, trials, temptations, and all that jazz can be so easily surpassed. but only if you instill hope in yourself. hope that God brought this upon you to teach you something, to poke at you to get your attention. because you're not paying enough attention to what matters most. God has a funny way of telling me what i want is totally different than what he wants me to do. and i thought i was becoming hopeless when it came to this God thing, and i was just going through the motions... God shows himself to me. and i couldn't be happier.