do you know where your heart is?

do you think you can find it?



so today's quite the exciting day. it is the morning of my high school prom. this is the day that has all the days before it bowing down in complete submission. because really, other than graduation, this is the high point of a high school senior's year. everything else almost seems useless and just a precursor to this one day. well, maybe i'm dramatizing it a bit.

so this weather tires me. the heat waves hold me back from going outside. instead, i'd much rather sit here in the nice air conditioning, one of the best inventions ever. i could even say that i'm already sick of the heat. hello winter?

time has been fighting with me lately. but it is a battle without a purpose, knowing that you can never win. time is the undermining force of the whole entire universe. of course, you can't rewind or forward. god forbid. i've just been really wishing for a couple more hours here and there so i could spend just a little more time hanging or possibly get more shut-eye. i know that this is the ending of a chapter and i know i'm starting a new one. i know i know. i've heard it all before. but i want to squeeze and drain every single drop of time i can before 'the end'. a good carpe diem mindset, i suppose. also an addition to my 'no regrets' philosophy on life. but it seems like i can never get enough. i don't ever want to leave or stop. and then i realize i probably won't ever fulfill my quota of time spent here. so carpe diem until august 20th. i won't allow myself to lose (in more ways than one) until then.

august 20th.