in your own way.

so in this new age world, embracing flaws is a good thing. in fact, flaunt them. they are who you are. yeah yeah. i'm human, right? one of my flaws is my temper and i definitely do not want to flaunt it. most of my friends have seen me freak out. but believe me, that's not even the beginning of it. i think my family has only really seen the raw real thing. it's pretty out of control, godzilla-like even. i take after my father. many say i'm the younger female version of him. and what's sad is that i can see it. once i start yelling, i don't stop. it feels like i don't get my point across ever. and i always have to have the last word. i don't know how i really got to be this way. it used to be really bad when i was in junior high. my dad would yell and yell at me until i cried. then he would keep yelling. i'd leave to go to my room and slam the door for a dramatic effect. he'd stand outside my door and yell even more. i'd be trapped. that hasn't happened for years and i honestly am relieved. his temper would flare up so much i'd fear my life although i know my father would never lay a hand on me. my mom would come and sit on my bed. she would tell me to never talk back to my father, it would just make it worse. well telling me not to stand up for myself is like telling me not to breathe for a day or two. i would probably die. so i guess in defense, i've developed a sharp tongue and dagger words. i'm sorry to those i've hurt. i'm unable to censor my choice of words and i offer my sincerest apologies. that's all i have to say for now.